Dear my husband,
How are you? I hope you are fine... 1 year we've been through this long-distance-relationship. I know you're doing great in our homecountry, like I do here. Newcastle treat me well. I hate to confess this, but I already feel that this city is my 2nd home. Surprising, isn't it? Who knows, this city was something strange to me, never heard of Newcastle before. When people talked about United Kingdom, they always mention London, or Manchester, or Birmingham, or Liverpool. Nobody ever talked about Newcastle upon Tyne. But here I am now, already in love with the city, for so many reasons. Thank God for letting me call this place my 2nd home for the past 12 months :)
I'm writing to you to say thank you, from the deepest place in my heart. Thank you. Thank you for believe in me and letting me go to pursue my dream. Yes, studying abroad was my dream, travel the world was my dream since the time I couldn't remember. For some people it's not a dream, because they can easily ask their parents to do so, to fund them to studying abroad, or to travel the world. But my parents is different, they give me more than just money: they've been teaching me a life lesson. That you must work hard and dream high without being such a spoiled brat. Since highschool, I swore that someday I will study master abroad without my parents money. I did it. I got the scholarship. Some people said that I was lucky. They are wrong. I'm not only lucky, it was also the result of hardwork. Endless hardwork. You knew it and you keep supporting me from the very beginning.
Hardwork, tears, sweat, and the most important thing: sacrifice. By pursuing this dream, I have to let go another dream. I have to leave my work, my own studio that I've built from zero. You know it's not easy, as I rise and fall many times in the process. Then I also have to leave the chance to continue my dream job, a career as a TV travel presenter. Gosh, how good it is to be paid for traveling, eating and being present in television, right? :) But life is not always about chances, it is also about choices. and... the hardest thing, I have to leave you.
But you are such a gentleman. You know what compromise is, and you understand what the commitment in relationship really is. Did you? Well, cut the crap. I know you hate to let me go, you hate it more than anything else in the world. But I know, when the time came, you finally let me go only for one reason: because you simply love me. You just love me so much that you let me become who I am, who I want to be. I know I will never be able to be grateful enough for this. When other men probably breaking up with their couple because of things like this, you stood up and ask me to marry you before I leave. That is you. My gentleman, my amazing husband.
But people never really understand, aren't they? Friends, family, foes, I don't know what they are talking behind our back. Maybe something like - how come I leave just when we got married, how come you let your wife go faraway for a long time, and stuffs. Well, I don't care about what they say, really. Your sincerity to 'release' me was the only thing that matter. You understand how bad I want this in my life and how did I struggle to get this one-time-in-a-life chance.
So yes, I am very thankful, very grateful to have you as my husband. Thank you for believe in me. You know I will not dissapoint you in any way. Look now. I beat the world, I got an award from Newcastle University for the best dissertation!!! Can you believe it?? I can't. It's like a dream, hehehe. It's just one amongst other things that I will prove to you, that I will become a better person when I get back home, and I hope many more virtues to come. Because of you, because of the trust that you have given to me, I could learned so many precious things here. About friendship, about knowledge, about reading a map (and you know I do this better than everyone else, my skill keep growing ;)), about being independent, about 'no guts no glory', about life... Can't mention it one by one, too many valuable things.
And I am glad because you always 'here' with me. Together we will continue travel the world, won't we? Even when together doesn't always mean go side by side, but I know we will always be together, no matter what.
Once again, thank you.
Now I have to start packing my things and fly to my home sweet home: to you.
See you soon?
|View from my 2nd home|
|My home sweet home: you :)|
Millenium Bridge at night picture by Meilani M.